I am missing my lil bro right now. In the last 2 weeks he has been subject to 3 moves. He was on I wing, then G week, then K wing and now bloody B wing. Idiots. Idiots. Idiots.

I so want to be a criminal lawyer now defence one of course.

At work im enjoying my new role. My team...haha. One girl is fresh of the BVC and has come on with a barristers hat on. But it doesnt work. Not in my line of work. I wonder if i was like that.....and then i think how old must...

i need some energyyyyy

1) my bro had a civil case appeal yday. He was convicted on the criminal side, and civil....but appealed against civil and won I think it was nice sweet revege cuz he said the prosecutor got bollocked by the judge... just a bit a of a psychological boost.

2) we get to see him tomorrow at 2pm WOOHOOO

I'm addicted to two things, or make it three....these are the staples of my diet

-yop - its a strawberry yoghurt drink. At minimum i have a full bottle...or most days 2
- chakri sticks ....so spicy n delicious...like bombay sticks
and then theres jeera para...its like nimak paray but jeera para

i can not eat anything but i have to have the above...every day

its so baddd naa
i dont eat fruit at all...cant remember the last time...

zains gone to mosque with his dad so have a minute to myself....watching a whale programme...and writing here at same time

apparntly he stands with hubby whilst he reads namaz

early induction

even tho im not particularly religious myself n i dont read..its still a source of pride for me hehehehe

like his little pumpkin card he drew me for halloween...like the first bit of something he brought from me back from school

im...

This morning i struggled to get him dressed as dracula for his nursery halloween party. Parked outside the nursery to see another mum with her kids in casuals. Nearly had a heart attack. Surely i hadn't confused the dates and brought my son dressed as a vampire on the wrong day. Shukar hea...the woman had the fancy dress in a bag. Nearly died. Here is my cutey vampire


The most delightfully mischevious little boy ever MUAH

I went to see my little brother today. Actually made it. I'd gone in thinking that he was happy....so to be honest there was no build of nerves or even sadness. Just taking it in my stride......got there, everything was fine cept the dogs....they get the dogs to sniff you...i was so freaked out...i closed me eyes ...shukar hea it didnt touch me but i swear...that was frightening....

So we enter......after, photograph, fingerprinting, ID check.......then another fingerprinting, stamp...

A job well done.

I had a nice super organised time.

Zaini was soo happy to see his khala.... she walked in and he was in shock, bounded about not knowing what to do hehe

I look like a tranny haha...i always do lol dont know what it is with me

I blame the mousse today. I normally use laboratoire garnier, swear by it...nothing makes my hair look better...used pantene and i looked and felt awful.... sighs...


Funny...

Im thinking of writing a will. I dont have any assets though lol so i dnot really have much to give away. But wrongly or rightly...recent deaths have brought home to me just how fragile this life is. I dont want to die and for it not to be known what id have liked...esp when i have zain. have any of you written wills? Wonder what requirements are for valid islamic will

ooooh im so excited...i always get excited about bdays...and its zain bday tomorrow....i have 2 and a half days off work for it....i get so excited over these thnigs.....i got his dvd player....got the tablet design...so no opening and closing lids...now i just need to pirate a copy of the gummybear dvd...or pay 20quid for it..

got all the decor...have blown up some ballooons and been throwing them about....building up an atmosphere on our own

cant wait till all...

hrhhehe

zaini trys to wake me up in the momrning

mama mama
and im like go away im sleepy
then hes like mama and slides his hands under my back and says 'up,....mama up'



all my party attendees are backing down
legit reaons though

and its a bit of selfish of me to keep it during the day on a thursday when everyone works and has to travel 3 hours to get to me
but i like to celeb a bday on the...

hubby goes pak on december 4th

i dont think i will struggle without him,,,im really quite a strong girl...i do tons of stuff without reliance......my cousins came to stay for a few days and were really impressed that such a skinny person has so much stamina

I have this brilliant ability...when i know i need to do something....i will keep going and going and going....my body will be tired but my mind is so awake and i push myself to the limit,......thats what its...

I recieved this today from my baby bro

''....Did you know when we were in court in the canteen when i got the keys of Tahira i went home, can you believe that? I seen Zain lying down with a duvet over hime, he was awake sucking his dummy, i kissed him 9 or 10 times as as i was walking out of the door i looked back..he was looking at me and tears came into my eyes, i bet you cant believe i went home from corown court, if you dont believe me ask mum, when i was going out of the door...

So i dont think i can go to see him on zains birthday...its a thursday, we will be going manchester on friday. so on thursday just having a small do with some friends to mark zains bday. Feel a bit down but dont wana neglect zain in the process

I got him a baby laptop, getting him a portable dvd player, will finally unwrap his first birthday pressie of a bike and fix it up for him, and mebbe some plastic animals. Hopefully these are things he likes........

I brought...

zain is the most entertaining kid hehe

He says mama...'shweeet, shweet'

and i say nahin zain, no shweets

and then puts one finger next to his face and says 'one'
mama 'one'

lol

and he has ten anyway

he has the cutest cutest dance moves...heheeh....im gona finally video him on his bday...dont do it regularly as dont get the time and have no videocam....but will get one of him and share
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