i feel like im on such a role today.. and its wonderful!

ive managed to book two vendors in for a demonstration... and a third is on its way.. my CIO is might impressed. He's asking me how on earth did i find the vendors in like an hour

aaah GOOGLE! as long as you know what to type in, you can get ur answers quite quickly.. me thinks

just imagine... if i spent all my time at work, actually working, how much work I'd get done!

in other news,...

Looking back over past few journal entries - just remembered...I had this plan to excercise every day

I did it; I swear I did - for like a week.

Now I am taking that hour and diverting it to one hour extra of sleep.

Current emotional status: Still annoyed.

::Yay::

Thank God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Will write more later. . .

‘Would you hold my hand and escort me? '

He was asking as if he didn't know the answer.

‘Would you hold my hands, would you? '

And it was still silence.....

How could she? She couldn't, and she won't. Holding his hands while he's in such a misery, she wouldn't dare. So what? Let him sleep, his eternal sleep? Let him vanish from the face of this planet just like millions of others? Only this time, he's a little close to her and much closer to eternity...

Kal History ka examination hai :s.

History mushkil nhi hai lekin teacher mushkil hai :s:s:s !!

Aaj ka bhi exam is teacher ki waja se acha nahin hua '-(.
Time hi bht kam diya tha usne !

Allah Kare kisis tarha kal ka examination sahi ho jaye, phirrrr Chhutiyaan !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Aur Pakistan ka MATCH !!!!!!!!!

Bas dua karo mere liye

plzzzz

The past few days have been extremely hard for me .I had tied Zeba with a metal chain but somehow she flew away breaking the chain,leaving me all alone.I feel guilty.I feel she hates me for beating her up but i did it out of the emotional stress i was under.With every breath i think of her..how she would be and where would she be..kis haal mein hogi..kuch khaya hoga keh nahe..wo to mere baghair khana bhi nahe khatee thei..we used to eat together in one plate.She used to feed me and i used to feed...

okk so this has happenned not once but twice in a row..i have been seeing gupshup forum in my dreams now..is it not enough that i spend whole day on my laptop checking gupshup ?
come on this is the worst form of addiction..

so yesterday i dreamt of reading gupshup forum and when i woke up i remember telling my hubby about my dream..he was like is it not enough that you spend whole day on your computer..
and today the dream was soo vivid..i remember reading some threads...

i just dont know anymore.

i cant get him to stay awake for his feeds.. he will be all chirply and awake but the second the nipple touches his mouth he is GONE. usually he keeps sucking but the speed slows down to almost nothing.

so i dont wanna force feed him cuz he gags. i put him down and he wakes up after like 5 mins. i HATE it when he does that. ive tried to take his socks off.. put his feet on a cool surface but he is so friggin dheet! to think he would sleep until...

*blush*

Here I was this morning regretting my emotional outburts (read: whining) of last night and place my entry on personal thinking it's equivalent to private entry.

Turns out I was wrong (I think). LOL

Thanks for the commiserations though.

They were well-appreciated.

Now can any of you teach me how the blog controls work?

How do you make entries private?

Is that even possible or the whole journal...

ive finally grown a spine..

last week when hebz was sick and i called like 3 clinics to get her an appointment, and when the 3rd one said:

receptioist: "oh yes, we can book you in"
me: "great..."
receptionist: "your name and medicare card... oh wait, have you been here before?"
me: "no... but i can give you my details"
receptionist: "sorry.. we arent taking new patients today"
me: FURIOUS!!!!...