aankh uss ki sharabi
ya labb uss k gulabi?
mathay pe latki zulf
ya kaan mai latki baali?

uss k haath ka kangna
ya ungli mai pehna challa?
ungliyon mai dupatay ko ghoomana
ya dupatay ko daanton mai chabana?

uss ka apni baatoN se ghabrana
ya meri baatoN mai ulajh jana?
nazrain chura kar uss ka sharmana
ya daanton mai honton ko chabana?

uss k woh saday se khawab
ya uss k nakhrailay adaab?...

lol at posh brits.

It's starting off to be a very angry and horrible day for me. I feel very cranky and have the relentlessness creeping in. I just don't know what to do or who to talk to. Who do I turn to? I, once again, feel like talking to someone who's a lot older than I am and is much more experienced in different aspects of life. I'm getting pissed off by every little thing.

I woke up feeling okay. I checked my email to find nothing from Nelly. Maybe at work? No FLIPPING NO. I hate the false hopes....

It took me way longer than necessary, mostly because I had more distractions and no other help. I guess I did have help in moving half the furniture.




The saws (Miter & jig saw) were borrowed from S, my co-worker, though I did buy the blades. The floor was bought from Costco, and other tools as needed from Lowes & Home Depot. The total square footage with new floor is about 330 sq ft. Rough estimate, I say around $700 spent.


...

see, no one paints a real picture of how it will be to be a parent.

when u become pregnant u imagine how life will be with a baby.

hell i used to

calmness. thats what i dreamt. i dont know why. but i did.

breastfeeding the baby calmly whilst humming to it

taking long walks at the park. sitting and having a picnic whilst the baby played with itself peacefully and u cooed at it. life was all golden and sunny.

everyone...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mYrw7nhkEJM