bits n bats

So i dont think i can go to see him on zains birthday...its a thursday, we will be going manchester on friday. so on thursday just having a small do with some friends to mark zains bday. Feel a bit down but dont wana neglect zain in the process

I got him a baby laptop, getting him a portable dvd player, will finally unwrap his first birthday pressie of a bike and fix it up for him, and mebbe some plastic animals. Hopefully these are things he likes........

I brought a blue suit to wear........

Hes wearing his orange kurta cuz i lost the eid snaps when he wore it so i wana take pix of him wearing it

nothing big...but hopefully enjoyable

My bro rang and told mum to do dua he gets moved to category d. T said he doesnt sound good. I feel awful. hubby was being so stupid and said that how come im havnig a party?
weirdo......i have to be encouraged to retain a sense of normality.....my heart is heavy....i feel burdened inside....but i have to do the day to day crap.....otherwise time would never pass...

Sometimes i thik my hubby has adopted my bad habits. All the badness in me...like i dont like sharing my food. Yeah I mean, i always ask everyone if they want something to eat but i dont like people taking from my plate when ive asked and theyve said no. and he does the same back...and i wonder why....cuz if u have a good habit of sharing, surely you should keep up with that?

Or sometimes when im awkward...he adopts the awkwardness...weirdo

when i drove to manchester and had a massive fight with him on friday i bit my lip and the ulcer is so huge and still killing......the pharmacist advsied iglu and said its better than bongela...but shes lyinggg......it doesnt last for hours.....and its not better