i hate not knowing where everyone i know is, and what they are upto. And i guess i have lost contact with people that i cared about a lot. And i do miss them.

In addition to my sadness, i am coke-free. Survived a whole week without the drink. After seeing the dentist bill i knew this expensive habit couldnt continue

Aur kya....im off work for 5 days in a row

i actually had to take annual leave to take my kapray out of the suitcases and put them...

Gosh

It's always been a while since i last wrote, i'm never on top of anything anymore.....

Khair, i've left my old flat. The hell it caused. Working 8 hours to go to to a flat and do rounds of moving things for another 7 hours and clean up....ugh. The days are over. I got my full deposit back yday. But the new place is a mess. Everything is in bags and bags. And the wardrobe structure fell apart when he was putting it up so we'd had to hammer huge nails in to put...

I am looking for a flat to rent in bristol. Im currently in one bedroom apartment, and i want ideally a 2 bedroom ground floor apartment with a garden. I saw one in the SAME rent as my current property! To think ive been paying blindly and living tight all this time. It does mean that we will live in a bit of a rough area but i have been brought up in Manchester which didnt used to be, but has become quite rough. And to be honest when i went to the new apartment a part of me felt so at home. Like...

The doctor said i had a low grade something or another .....and it should clear. Started to feel better after hearing that, so strange

Aur kya...im teaching zain how to brush his teeth hehehehehe the current set up is that he eats the toothpaste and drinks the water lol

Hubby got back from a week and a half in denmark. His mum had a quadruple bypass. Scares me stuff like that.

But ive been doing so much running whilst he was away. Lugging zain...

Oh god kuriyo...i never told you my mums house got burgled?

And the kutta took BOTH my cameras. Fuji finepix AND ricoh....fuji finepix was found in a taxi so that was arrite but my ricoh...180quid i paid fori t....

thats why no pixxxxx

Im hoping someone takes notes and my bday is upcoming so you never know

....

im so ill

have been for the 15th day

somet wrong with my tongue...

Lifes too busy, thats why i hate western life. You live day to day on the run...no time for nothing, no breaths to spare....fking hate it.

Anyways
- my washing machine began to work so i got a couple of washes and then broke down again so ive got another backlog of laundry and i got some cowboy coming on saturday to sort it out as i dont have warranty
- hubby has gone denmark as his mum is having a triple bypass. Please pray for her as it is tomorrow. I hope she recovers...

omg what a day

gotta write home about it tonite XXXX

hope u all good

I've not been around cuz
- i was sick
- zain had chicken pox
- jetani went pak and left me with 6 kids and daddy. For real. Cooking and cleaning was madddddddddd
-work has been mega busy
- my washing machine broke...yeah a bit random but its been playing up so im truthfully very busy with arsing around with the laundry...

XXXXX

When i went to pak there were so many weddings, and so many beautiful brides. Will share....ha! bet you've heard that enough times

Can't believe MASHALLAH so many guppan mummies now. Congrats Erum.......

My little one isn't actually a baby anymore. I look at him and think jesus! your a little boy. He speaks mainly english words cuz of the nursery. So it's all hiya, bye, seeya, emma, tasha.......he has learnt how to point at what he wants. When he's hungy he grunts...

..i had a blast in pakistan.

i loved it

and i feel so sad to be back

miss all the cousins

and i hate western life more than ever now

i hate the robotic monotonous existence...i hate not knowing my neighbours...i hate work...i only like the money lol

wish i could a earn a ton in pak and have a nice place to live in....i think i could tradeplaces

the only thing i did miss was...........meat....yeah...theres...

zaini saysss HIYAAAA lol

its no hi
no hello
no salam shaam

just hi-yaaaa
and ba byee

I'm stressed

Very

I think i've had not had a meal in 5 days

I've been snackig on namak paray and chakri sticks with strawberry yoghurt drink

The household chores have built up around me and much as they bother me the sick feeling in my stomach won't go away long enough for me to deal with them

I think yesterday was also the first time i was late to work, late back from break and late back from lunch......says something...

to think zain has started walking hehehehe

hes so cute all wobbly....

and he extends his arms to balance....and then tumbles over....oh he looks SO cute....

and tasha tells me he did music and singing today at the nursery....really enjoying it...he kept laughing and has now started copying the other children when they sing twinkle twinkle hehehe

u know...i took him tescos the other day...and he started crying...hes such a food monster...he...

...how goes it gupplos?

happy new year to u all...

fk

mines started on a bad note....the next couple of months r gona be bad...for reasons i dun wana say

...just pray k

other than that major major turmoil....everythign is ok

hubby comes back from dk on saturday

zain has caught aNOTHER virus...vomiting diarrohea temp n crap...

i have so far managed to fight it off...
...

my son...a bit sweet...very naughty...cute smile...
he started waving bybye to me now and says bah bah...hehe





with his santas hat on