to denmark (spit spit)

trip was wonderful.. i SO needed time away from here... it was great getting the chance to stay with the folks and siblings for 2.5 months.. thank to hubby dearest for putting up with the single life whilst we were gone.

aariz turned 7 months on the 15th mashallah.. he is a handful.. arm ful and actually.. bodyfull.. he climbs ppl, wanting to jump from their embrace.. he turns around and around when we are holding him, so we put him down thinking...

meray gaalo ko haath lagaya tumnay.

i looked down, blushing.

but the power of ure being forced me to keep glancing up, shyly, my innocent eyes meeting the long eyelash lined beauties of ures.

your soft silky loose curls, gently flowing between my fingers. sometimes i would clench my fist, to keep the ends of ure flowing locks from drifting away from me.

my body, edged towards ures, excited. my balance, getting the best of me, i topple sidewards,...

2nd tooth popped out today!! mashallah he is doing quite well, if u dont count the clingyness.. my arms are KAPUT from carrying him around.. he doenst want to be left alone at all.. but i think he is getting off way easy mashallah .. eating and sleeping well thankfully.

he bit dad on his finger and blood came out! we were so super shocked .. who knew baby teeth could be so frigging sharp.. he is so chalak though.. he BITES our fingers, but only SUCKS on his.. and even moves his own...

OH MY GOD!!!!!

FIRST TOOTH! FIRST TOOTH!!!!

aariz just cut his first tooth (bottom)

mom was feeding something with her fingers when she touched something sharp. he had been putting his finger in his mouth but would quickly take them out as if weirded out by the sensation....it was a tooth...

mom and i both got teary eyed and shed a few. never knew what khushi kay ansoo meant until yesterday!!!

so so thankful he has managed to...

good or bad.. but i went ahead and bought aariz a walker.. i was hesistant for the longest time cuz of all the stories of babies tipping over and getting hurt or thinking it may hinder his effort to learn to walk on his own...

but i dont know.. everyone i know including myself was a walker baby and learned to walk just fine.. hell i was walkin at 7 months and runing around at 8.

so i got one for him... he loves it.. doesnt quite understand how he is able to move around...

mein doob merna chahiye me.

its for my existence' best i have never been able to gather enuff water in a chullu, im handicapped liked that...

ate strawberry filled lindt choco.. like.. half a block. thats what.. 8 pcs??

i like to lie and tell ppl oh its water retention from the pregnancy... i wonder how long u can use that excuse.. hehe

so aariz is at a cute stage where everyday brings with it a new trick. but he quickly forgets some of them,...

is enough to send a woman into severe depression..

u still shop for the size u used to be.. and then u realize u are in no way gonna fit into that teeny tiny thing... sadly u move onto the ... gulp.. bigger size... zara.. a store i used to love to shop at doesnt even have my size.. well they say they have xl but even that is slim fit..

the shock.. the horror..

oh my god the bulges, the waves of fat, the 5 month STILL pregnant looking stomach... dear sweet...

of all the throwing up.. after every single feed.. sometimes its a splash that follows a burp.. and sometimes its like he has emptied his stomach of not only the present feed but also the past ...

aariz loves his milk and wants to just keep drinking but he cant handle it.. if i dont pull away forcefully after a few oz', he has to throw up.. sometimes if he continues to finish his feed without a break, i burp him and it all just comes out.. hell even when i do burp him in between a...

i miss the mr. this is the last time we leave seperately.. but then we promised each other that last yr too...

if only my passport hadnt been played hide and seek with, we may just have gone home together.

now he's there miserable and im here even more miserable cuz its hard missing ure sig other and still put up a happy face so that ure mom and dad and siblings dont feel second rate..

dad increased the size of his dil and said i can go home if i want,...

aariz turned 6 months yesterday. half way there.

as a gift for mommy, he learned a new trick to mark the big day. blowing bubbles. now he does it whenever he remembers he knows how to do it.. and when he is ready to go to bed. its hillarious and very cutish.

his milk got changed yet again .. so far its helping and he hasnt thrown up *fingers crossed*... i hope it stays like that.. cuz im really really tired of all the vomit... not to mention all the nutrients taht he...

husband left day before yesterday

bhaijaan left yesterday

a month left before i leave

mom is feeling the empty house and says she will sink into depression when teh baby and i leave. so her plan is to leave for pakiland soon after i have departed. thats good. she needs ppl around her.

aariz turns 6 months in 4 days. half way there to his 1st bday. im really feeling the 'oh no he is growing up way too fast and not a midget anymore' sadness...

a month into my vacation.. still have a month and half to go and im already feeling sad at leaving... i dont want this vacation to ever end..

sis left 5 days after i got here.. ive never been insanely close to my sis.. we have 9.5 yrs age gap, and totally diff personalities.. but i dont know.. ever since i had aariz, i have become a softy.. for the first time i actually wanted to hug her and kiss her and cuddle her.. and i actually DO miss her now taht she isnt here.. ive never missed...

cb thats true haha.. u are a good detective.. i do update facebook first before coming ot gupshup.. haha.

nimko: i ALWAYS wanted twin girls.. THANK god god only decided to give me one of aariz! i still pray for twin girls but not like aariz.. they should be nice and sweet and sleep all the time and just be bundles of sweetness... i was so huge when i was pregnant with aariz that my midwife believed ultrasounds weren't showing the other twin... she would say it every time i would go...

i am SO close to just breaking my fast early today. just 3 days in and im dying.. not so much of hunger but of my very very disturbed sleep pattern thanks to sehri and aariz

iftar is at 8 friggin 30, try to put aariz to bed before that.. by the time i am done with isha, its nearly 12 frigging 30 am.. aariz wakes up for his first night time feed at 1 frigging 30, sehri is at 3 frigging 30, done by 4 frigging 30, read fajr, by the time i get into bed its 5.. aariz wakes up at 5 friggin...

and so the passport saga comes to an end

for more info, read up in my prev blog entries

its gonna be a long read so put ure kids to sleep, eat whatever u want (actually its ramadan so forget that), pee, poo, aur pariye

so last i updated was, norwegian post had mailed my passport after customs checking it for 2 weeks! (i should have gotten my passport within 2 days instead)

finally, allah allah ker kay, last friday i got my passport. i open...