It happened!
Posted Mar 14th, 2008 at 11:35 AM by Michelle Ali
Shukar-al-hamdulliah!
Yesterday, after seven months I read namaz.
I felt like Nabeel in "ajayb ghar" (am not sure about the name because i watched it long time ago).
Before I started...I had this horrible, terrible terrifying feeling inside. I was scared to death. Scared of standing in front of God and ask for forgiveness for all those times I neglected him. Soch rehi thi ke kiss mouN se mafi mangon.
But when I started...oh! I felt like I finally was freed from my own prison...freed from a heavy burden I had put on myself. I started to cry. I put my head on ya-namaz and cried my heart out. I just couldn't find the right words...I couldn't understand how to justify my behavior...I couldn't figure how to thank God enough for all his neymateiN and rehmateiN on me and my family. Ya Allah. I only asked for his forgiveness and now finalmente I have soo much sukoooN.
What happened was that I was having a random discussion with a colleague about unthankfulness. I was saying to him: "in everyday life they don't remember God, but whenever they need something they start praying. selfish people..." *shivers* that moment it occurred to me how biased I was. Ugh. Apne aap se is kadar sharmindgi shayd hi pehle kabhi hoi ho
I hope Allah forgives me. And I hope HE helps me to never put myself in this misery ever again. Ameen.
Yesterday, after seven months I read namaz.
I felt like Nabeel in "ajayb ghar" (am not sure about the name because i watched it long time ago).
Before I started...I had this horrible, terrible terrifying feeling inside. I was scared to death. Scared of standing in front of God and ask for forgiveness for all those times I neglected him. Soch rehi thi ke kiss mouN se mafi mangon.
But when I started...oh! I felt like I finally was freed from my own prison...freed from a heavy burden I had put on myself. I started to cry. I put my head on ya-namaz and cried my heart out. I just couldn't find the right words...I couldn't understand how to justify my behavior...I couldn't figure how to thank God enough for all his neymateiN and rehmateiN on me and my family. Ya Allah. I only asked for his forgiveness and now finalmente I have soo much sukoooN.
What happened was that I was having a random discussion with a colleague about unthankfulness. I was saying to him: "in everyday life they don't remember God, but whenever they need something they start praying. selfish people..." *shivers* that moment it occurred to me how biased I was. Ugh. Apne aap se is kadar sharmindgi shayd hi pehle kabhi hoi ho
I hope Allah forgives me. And I hope HE helps me to never put myself in this misery ever again. Ameen.
Total Comments 4
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a big Ameen to your duas! May you never miss a Salat again, inshAllah
Posted Mar 15th, 2008 at 12:25 AM by pinks
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better late than never.Posted Jul 2nd, 2008 at 03:09 PM by farishta2
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That's beautiful.Posted Aug 6th, 2008 at 02:03 PM by Sahar02
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the beautiful thing is that He is the most forgiving one and i am sure that every single one of those tears and every single one of those duas that you made were answered by HIM..Posted Oct 14th, 2008 at 02:46 PM by Ansoon
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