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UGH! :@ :(

Posted Jul 6th, 2009 at 12:26 PM by mona_khan

It's starting off to be a very angry and horrible day for me. I feel very cranky and have the relentlessness creeping in. I just don't know what to do or who to talk to. Who do I turn to? I, once again, feel like talking to someone who's a lot older than I am and is much more experienced in different aspects of life. I'm getting pissed off by every little thing.

I woke up feeling okay. I checked my email to find nothing from Nelly. Maybe at work? No FLIPPING NO. I hate the false hopes. I hate being clouded in fallacy. It’s a done deal. That's really out of the way. Nice hurtful fact of life to deal with for now. Not too shabby, eh? *rolls eyes* Maybe I've something better in store? Yeah... that's it. Kahin ho hi na jaye aisa.

It just feels that from there things just started going downhill. I just feel like bawling my eyes out. You know what? It's hard when you work SO extremely hard towards something. EVERYTHING in your life revolves around it. You waited and you wait and you wait for OH SO LONG! RIGHT when you think that you'll almost get some peace in life or at a substantial point after all the running around, you are told "No No No. Wait a sec kiddo! You're not done quite yet! You gotta work a LITTLE more" That 'little' ain't little, buddy! Sometimes, it just feels like nature...life...just wants too much out of you. It's consuming the best of me! WAY TOO MUCH!

I feel that there's a lot of sadness in this world. And it feels as if it's just way too much for me to handle at times...

It's noon. I'm going to shower, eat, pray and leave for work early today. I know I'm going to have a ****ty day at work because of some new changes.

This song is a healer for now: YouTube - Aakhri Alvida