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My B-day!

Pathani — Sun, 28 Oct 2007 19:35:13 GMT

sighs...lol

I thought they had 4gotton my b-day!
(and I checked....nobody posted my b-day at GS either!)
So I went home a bit later than usual.
Mamajaan didnt give me a morning-kissy saying happy b-day! It looked like a bad start of the day.....*heavy hearted then*

I got several sms by lots of friends etc. co-workers and even my sweet god-mother. But nothing from my bros! was really sad na ;)

When I got home, 2 of my bros surrounded me and gave lots of hugs! (Too late, na!) Then one gift at a time to open....awwwww

So, I got 2 books and a samsung mp3 player!
Yesterday, we went out to dine all 2gether!
I love Turkish open grill....yummy!

I jumped to conclusions too fast.....lol They tested my patience for sure this year! Brothers!!!!! I cant live without em!

Final Fantasy

Pathani — Fri, 19 Oct 2007 23:15:42 GMT

*Believe In Me*

Lenny Kravitz

Pathani — Fri, 19 Oct 2007 23:09:33 GMT

*All that I want is stillness of heart*

Hate When I Love You

Pathani — Fri, 19 Oct 2007 22:58:52 GMT

*You cant live with or without it*

Good to hear late at night, especially weekends.
Had a day since 7 am, now Im simly exhausted but still not ready to crash.

Im silly, but I love waving my hands to the tune....lol
Koii haal nahin hai mera!

Just thinking blinking

Pathani — Fri, 19 Oct 2007 19:48:29 GMT

*sigh*
Dont want to read my own bla bla bla.

Dont let the sun go down on me

Pathani — Fri, 19 Oct 2007 10:30:33 GMT

Its one of my fav. songs. Im pretty sad after the tragic event of last night.
Restless and besides myself. Its a staying at home day, gotta go to work.... bummer

daagh

Pathani — Fri, 19 Oct 2007 08:52:26 GMT

aarzu hai wafa kare koii
jii na chaahe to kyaa kare koi

Gar marz ho davaa kare koii
Marne vaale ka kya kare koii

Koste hain jale hue kya kya
Aane haq men dua kare koii

Un se sab apni apni kahte hain
Mera matlab adaa kare koi

Tum saraapaa ho suurat-e-tasviir
Tum se phir baat kya kare koi

Jis men laakhon baras ki huuren hon
Aisi jannat ko kya kare koi

Phew!

Pathani — Thu, 18 Oct 2007 12:57:29 GMT

I thought, I had missed a session with my mentor.

*phew* I was wrong. It is very giving.....
To be analyzed and given feedback on various things. These 1-on-1 sessions are like breaking personal barriers.

So I get to determine whatever I wish to focus on next 4 comming years as for self improvement & etc.

Ive never felt so happy or thrilled in my entire life, its so rewarding.....my learning proces has really got me wondering...lol

*ops, time to leave for work*

Delerium - Silence ft. Sarah McLachlan (Tiesto Mix)

Pathani — Tue, 16 Oct 2007 22:04:56 GMT

Can you keep up?

Sometimes I have a strong urge to break free. Free from my own golden cage....my image.

*I imagen dancing endless hours in Goa to this trance. Amongst strangers, totally careless. Listning to it makes me high*

Eid Gifts?

Pathani — Tue, 16 Oct 2007 19:12:49 GMT

Ayse kiyoon hota hai?

I didnt get any Eid gift or even suit......
*teary sad eyes*

Im always giving on Eid. Allahjee, may my next Eid be differently....ameen.

Im serious..... Not furious. (not yet then)
If it had been a picture or a bundle of fresh flowers or some nice candles.....it would had been ok.....

I gotta change the habit of my bros!!!!!!!
Spoiled brats! *kizmat puutih*
I got born as first born! grrrrrr@dad!

So, Im going to buy myself a late Eid gift and post the pics here! Im totally naraaz now.....lol (well, cant stay naraaz with GS)

I missed someone pretty badly at Eid!
Guess who, hu?

The one and only charming Mr.GS!
"He is trust worthy and reliable."
Not more than few buttons away....hehehe
Yeah, I think "He" is the only joy I cant get enough of. Why isnt he "real"? ;-)

*Oye dont get any ideas now....GS is super!*

Tune of my gizmo.....

Pathani — Tue, 09 Oct 2007 14:11:39 GMT

Im a curious soul.....
Whats the tune of your mobile?

My mamajaan loves the tune of my gizmo aka mobile.

It goes something like this:
Jah jah joopie joopie jay, i sing the jah jah joopie.....!
Its a little boy screaming his lungs out and its so DARN cute, I fell in love with his voice instantly! (plan:if I have any kid namely a boy, Im gonna teach him this...lol)

So now when my mobile "rings"......my mamajaan is all:"oh shooo cute!"

Hmmm, former tune was my absolute favorite of them all: The God Father theme!
Yeah, gotta live up to my Pathani image....samjha karein....lol ;-)

My Gizmo, my mobile....

Pathani — Mon, 08 Oct 2007 11:20:53 GMT

I love my Gizmo.
Got it with me 24x7x365.
Im pretty addicted to it.
Im very posessive too
I like to buy new covers and tingle tangles to make it look very special..lol
I hate when my brothers.....thinks it alrite to use my gizmo...my darling :-/

But then, I have the habit of changing my Gizmo every six month. So its a short love story and attachement....hehe

The conclusion:
I get bored after a while!
Though its my darling for a few months, I loose interest. To renew my love affair, I go out to "hunt" again. And this part, I love it. To go out and shop for a new Gizmo.

Today seems to be one of those days....
Pathani goes for hunting ;-)

Wish me luck....hehehe

The words of Haji Abbu

Pathani — Fri, 05 Oct 2007 19:14:53 GMT

Insaan jeetay jee khataoon sey karley tauba?
Majburionein kehiin farishtein bana'ay......

FaizJee

Pathani — Fri, 05 Oct 2007 13:42:24 GMT

Dil men ab yuun tere bhuule huye gham aate hain.
Jaise bichhade huay kaabe men sanam aate hain.

Aur kuch der na guzre shab-e-furqat se kaho.
Dil bhi kam dukhta hai vo yaad bhi kam aate hain.

Truly Amazing!

Pathani — Thu, 04 Oct 2007 14:30:50 GMT

Welcome to the path of my blog @GS.
Enjoy your time & take well care out there!

Last year I joined GS a day b4 my b-day.....
Now here we are again. Its anniversiry day soon...lol

2006 was a very bumpy ride. Heavens! And all I can say today is, 2007 is the best phase of my life! I never thought to myself in million years that I would manage to turn things around at the strenght/level Ive accomplished....thanks to Allahjee, my loving family and the few friends who stood by me through the rainy season.

B4 going to work, my brother who is very spiritual and doing sociology......by looking at him....I look at my babajaan, yaad-ish bakhair.....told me I had changed into MUCH better! He was almost teary saying the words. I dont know why, but agha jaan whenever he gives me feedback it simply means the world to me..... Yes, I call all my brothers for Aghajaan. Or their first name attached with agha. It changes the tone profoundly. Im content knowing, as a sister Ive done my very best.....they are trained to become a caring gentle fatherfigure and hubby. Their wives will surely be happy..... The frame work is done from our side. (yes, we have an obligation to groom our siblings into emotional healthy beings. Thats my thought on it at least and what I chose to practice....it all begins @home)

The best gift of the year was those words. I take responsibility for my communication. I take responsibility for my feelings and the way I react to other people. I THINK b4 I speak..... I take a break of FIVE seconds b4 I answer anything at all. A training and skill I wish to evolve and practice at perfection, is to chose as few words to say things/describe. I am truly amazed over my mentors at psychotherapist course, especially their coaching and groupsessions. Its so giving! Im really "high" on this. This was the best decision of my entire life to start this course. Im a kido....loving to LEARN throughout life.

So whats differently this year?

I dont hear that much music.
I dont parcitipate with people who simply put of my inner light/strenght.
I dont go into what I know is against my "inner voice".
I dont read poetry as often as in the past. More control to my random thoughts..hehe
Not so much on-line either. Only at work for now.

At some point, you ask yourself...why indulge in negativity?

Im planning to take a semester in US. I miss being there. Its most ajeeb.....once you have lived in English speaking countries....Scandinavia simply looses it charms. Two courses Id love to attend next six months is:

Anthony Robbins: A seminar etc
The Silva mind method....seminar in UK.

I dont want to limit myself. I believe we can have the life we dream of, here right now. All it takes is to take responsibility for yourself. Destiny is in your own hands. Shape it into the direction of DESIRE!