I sat amongst the graves and cried, at least they know how I feel
Bereft of life and soul, nothing left to call real
I walk empty now, soulless and void
Lifeless I live…and think without purpose or thought…
Not just scarred…defeated, killed, dead

Words have no meaning, music no sound. Food has no taste and my body no life...
Mind numb, thoughts unformed, haunting sleepless dreams…
I'm an empty shell…echoing of wasted life...eyes expressionless…...

Well she's not exactly his girl yet...but she sure as heck has her claws into him and is holding on for dear life...

He's explained to her that he still loves me and he's not over our relationship yet...she says 'don't worry I'll help you get over her, I'll wait for you...'

It's making me sick...she's buying him expensive presents, going to alot of trouble to find unusual and rare gifts...these were things I used to do for him...

She's very young but has...

Recently I attended a company dinner at a restaurant...after dinner, friends of some of my colleagues joined us for drinks...these were people I didn't know...

One girl took a decided liking to me and started chatting away...quite soon I felt something was wrong...she was talking utter nonsense and her mouth movement was inconsistent with her speech, her eyes were glazed and she seemed to be looking through me...at first I thought that perhaps she had a physical disability...so I turned...

I love wearing hats...this is my fav one...sorry about the lopsided smile

I wanted to post this in Images...but didn't think anyone would want to see a random pic of my hat...lol...am so glad journals are back...I can share my randomness fuss-free

Today, a long-awaited and much sought-after dream finally came true for me...and it seems only fitting that my first new journal entry should also be today...

I'm not yet ready to share the full details of this great event in my life...all I can say is that it's something I've yearned for for a very long time and all my hard work appears to have finally paid off...

The difficulties along the way have certainly been immense and throughout them, I've always kept a candle...