Chummo Jaanu

Im sure all of you have read about my little treasure...my baby niece.

Today is a sad day for me because she left. I just cannot stop crying. Her father found a job in Boston and has been there for about 5 months already. He was offered a contract, he took it and now they have all moved there for the time being. They rented an SUV, loaded it up and took my little princess with them.

I know everyone loves their nieces and nephews but I just adore mine. My younger sister calls me Baji so Baby calls me Baji too now. When I woke up every morning, I would hear her knocking on the door and saying loudly "Baji Ajaooooo"...lol. She got a brand new doll from my dad and she calls the doll Munni. My laptop is a "top" and when someone is changing her diaper, she sings "Baby chaap chaap" meaning Baby ko saaf saaf karrahe hein, lol. I taught her how to say "Uff!" and smack her little head in the process. Somewhere along the way, we started calling her Chummo Jaanu (her name is Sumaiya), Chummo Baba, Chummo Tota (because she is just like a tota) and now she calls herself Chummo too. Everytime Chummo wears new clothes, everyone says Mashallah. Now, she says it herself: Chummo Machannaaaa, LOL.

She kept me so busy, especially after I stopped working. I took care of her all day long and did nothing but enjoy her innocent little moments. We watched TV together, played together, ate together, etc. My sis didnt get a day off for Eid so I took my niece to Eid namaz with me too. We have child gates everywhere, all the doors have child locks on them, we still have baby wipes and diapers in the garage.

I know its for the best but I got so attached to her and love her so much! They will be back but what if I miss out on her new moments? What if she starts saying full sentences that make sense and Im not there to see it? I feel like I lost a limb or something. I saw her driving away and stared at the car thinking there goes my teeny tiny little diva. She became such a huge part of our everyday lives that even trips to downtown were planned with Baby in mind. Right now, there are baby clothes all over the house and I even see an empty baby bottle on the counter. The house feels so empty without her - like someone turned the lights off.

I just dont know what Im going to do without her. Ive seen her since she was less than an hour old...how am I going to be able to stand seeing her twice a year?

I just cant stop crying...