What did 2008 leave me with?
Posted Jan 4th, 2009 at 02:29 AM by PSquared
Updated Jan 5th, 2009 at 04:34 AM by PSquared (Adding a Picture)
Updated Jan 5th, 2009 at 04:34 AM by PSquared (Adding a Picture)
Wow, its the year 2009 already! Yikes! It seems like yesterday we were all fretting over Y2K and look at us now!
For me, 2008 brought a lot of changes into my life and I can honestly say I grew up this year.
I got a very nice position with a company whose direction and energy I loved but due to this horrid recession, they're barely making it so I got laid off. Im actually home these days and have never been happier. I was running around like a chicken with its head cut off before but I feel so peaceful and serene now. Allah ka shukar hai, he always takes care of us.
I lost my precious and beloved grandmother. Allah unki maghfirat kare. I still dont believe she is gone but I hope and pray that wherever she is, she is happy and proud of us. Sometimes I feel a sense of guilt because she wanted me to get married so badly while she was alive but I just wouldnt. I kept holding out thinking I cant settle until I find The One. I found my fiance but lost my nani and sadly he was unable to meet her. She would have loved him. What I wouldnt give to have her hand on my head and hear her give me dua on my nikah!
I got engaged! I found this amazing man who just adores me...sometimes more than I feel I deserve. He gets worried when Im sick, never lets me leave a shop without buying me something I like, takes me anywhere I want to go, calls me all the time, supports ALL of my crazy dreams and ideas, etc. I dont have a care in the world when he is around. I feel like everything will be okay now. He is smart, religious, educated, loves and understands me. What more can I ask for?
My niece moved to Boston with my sister and BIL. She is saying her name so clearly now, Mashallah. Before all I heard was Chummo...today I heard Soooomaaaaaaaaaaaaaayaaaaaaaa, lol. Translation: Sumaiya. I call her Meri Jaan, so she calls herself Meri Jaan too now, LOL. Her voice sounded so sweet and beautiful to my ears today...felt like squeezing her on the spot! If you guys met her, you would just eat her...she is scrumptious with dimples everywhere!!! Mashallah. And her Khala knows how to spoil her...Princess Sumaiya is not even two and has her own little collection of purses that she carries in the crook of her arm so delicately you would think she was transporting diamonds.
Thats my tiny little angel...say Mashallah please! Allah buri nazar se bachaye!
I let go of the past this year. I finally allowed myself to move past these invisible barriers and walls I had up to laugh and smile with the rest of the world. It felt like I had been hibernating. I really came to terms with what happened, closed my eyes to see if I felt any anger...I didnt. In fact, I felt nothing. I wish everyone the best and nothing less!
Im proud of myself guys! Ive been quite a busy bee in the year 2008 and made it out sane and alive!
I learned a lot, gained a lot, lost a lot and overall have come to appreciate the people around me.
For me, 2008 brought a lot of changes into my life and I can honestly say I grew up this year.
I got a very nice position with a company whose direction and energy I loved but due to this horrid recession, they're barely making it so I got laid off. Im actually home these days and have never been happier. I was running around like a chicken with its head cut off before but I feel so peaceful and serene now. Allah ka shukar hai, he always takes care of us.
I lost my precious and beloved grandmother. Allah unki maghfirat kare. I still dont believe she is gone but I hope and pray that wherever she is, she is happy and proud of us. Sometimes I feel a sense of guilt because she wanted me to get married so badly while she was alive but I just wouldnt. I kept holding out thinking I cant settle until I find The One. I found my fiance but lost my nani and sadly he was unable to meet her. She would have loved him. What I wouldnt give to have her hand on my head and hear her give me dua on my nikah!
I got engaged! I found this amazing man who just adores me...sometimes more than I feel I deserve. He gets worried when Im sick, never lets me leave a shop without buying me something I like, takes me anywhere I want to go, calls me all the time, supports ALL of my crazy dreams and ideas, etc. I dont have a care in the world when he is around. I feel like everything will be okay now. He is smart, religious, educated, loves and understands me. What more can I ask for?
My niece moved to Boston with my sister and BIL. She is saying her name so clearly now, Mashallah. Before all I heard was Chummo...today I heard Soooomaaaaaaaaaaaaaayaaaaaaaa, lol. Translation: Sumaiya. I call her Meri Jaan, so she calls herself Meri Jaan too now, LOL. Her voice sounded so sweet and beautiful to my ears today...felt like squeezing her on the spot! If you guys met her, you would just eat her...she is scrumptious with dimples everywhere!!! Mashallah. And her Khala knows how to spoil her...Princess Sumaiya is not even two and has her own little collection of purses that she carries in the crook of her arm so delicately you would think she was transporting diamonds.
Thats my tiny little angel...say Mashallah please! Allah buri nazar se bachaye!
I let go of the past this year. I finally allowed myself to move past these invisible barriers and walls I had up to laugh and smile with the rest of the world. It felt like I had been hibernating. I really came to terms with what happened, closed my eyes to see if I felt any anger...I didnt. In fact, I felt nothing. I wish everyone the best and nothing less!
Im proud of myself guys! Ive been quite a busy bee in the year 2008 and made it out sane and alive!
I learned a lot, gained a lot, lost a lot and overall have come to appreciate the people around me.
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You write beautifully.
Sorry for your grandmothers loss... I can imagine how bittersweet it is to meet THE ONE... the one you were waiting for but the one your grandmother was so anxious to see you with.. after she is gone.
I wish you loads of happiness, love, and laughter in 2009 and in the years to come. You sound like a really well-grounded, positive, and smart young girl... its such a rarity in todays world and so very refreshing to see that people like you still exist...Posted Jan 4th, 2009 at 02:37 AM by Skittlez
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Sorry to hear about your granny!
Very happy to know that you have found the love of your life, Masha Allah. All the best wishes and prayers for the time to come!
And... can I eat Sumaiya?
Posted Jan 4th, 2009 at 07:03 AM by danday_wala
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well well you have some good writing skills. I wish i could write my action scenes like that. .. lol, you are a positive thinker which is very good approach to stay happy in this day n age of frustration an disappointments. I can feel how much u miss ur grand mother. I lost both of my grand mothers (nanni and dadhy) in just 2 months time. They were very close two each other being nand n bhawaj. Any way best of luck with your love life and carrer in 2009Posted Jan 4th, 2009 at 11:36 AM by Lafanter
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happy new year PSquared!
life, as i see it, is khatti-meethi-namkeen. it's unrealistic to wish u just the meethi things in life, so i'll just say that i hope u have more meethi experiences than any others.Posted Jan 4th, 2009 at 12:03 PM by ~Namkeen~
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Thank you all for your wishes and kind notes.
DW - as for eating my Chummo - get in line after me!!!Posted Jan 4th, 2009 at 01:08 PM by PSquared
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Happy new year PSquared
Sorry about your loss ... and congrats on your engagement :=)Posted Jan 4th, 2009 at 03:38 PM by Maheen2002
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happy new year! congratzPosted Jan 4th, 2009 at 04:42 PM by lifeless
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such a sweet entry .... mash'allah
Love the positive angle and I pray that you will be uber happy this yearPosted Jan 5th, 2009 at 10:21 AM by Confucius
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