A Feminist's Perspective on Life
Friday Night and No Plans?
Posted Jun 26th, 2009 at 06:40 PM by PyariCgudia
She's in the final steps of move-out. I'm watching her as she packs - she doesn't need help, I already asked.
So, I sit here, back home from work (this time I made it back at 6:30 - victory is mine tonight!), drinking my orange flavored water, debating on whether to hang out in the apt and waste away the night like I've been doing this week, or go out and sit somewhere and just read, or try to do some work so I dont have work for tomorrow. Or call a friend...Sab would just want to go drinking or she'll take me to another sleezy artsy cafe where the people look good but the sandwiches taste bad...or she'll take me to yet another smoke concentrated bar. If I go to starbucks to read, I'll be sitting there alone. Don't know who else to call. Don't want to see classmates or co-workers. I've spent the entire day with them.
Maybe I'll spend the night alone reading.
I'm not really tired, like I usually am. A lot was done today; I was productive; things happened, things got done. Well, mostly.
Well, anyway, I am surrounded by boxes and things half packed. Would it be awkward if I stayed in tonight? She's packing. Would she think I'm in the way? Would it heighten the guilt? I dont want her to feel guilty, but at the same time I do. Being ditched, and then having to scurry to find someone else isn't exactly the easiest thing to do. Especially, since I had to alter my entire schedule to deal with it. I was the one impacted negatively. I was the one who had to pay. Never even "Sorry, I know this must be hard for you".
I always wondered. What does it feel like to be the person that leaves?
So, I sit here, back home from work (this time I made it back at 6:30 - victory is mine tonight!), drinking my orange flavored water, debating on whether to hang out in the apt and waste away the night like I've been doing this week, or go out and sit somewhere and just read, or try to do some work so I dont have work for tomorrow. Or call a friend...Sab would just want to go drinking or she'll take me to another sleezy artsy cafe where the people look good but the sandwiches taste bad...or she'll take me to yet another smoke concentrated bar. If I go to starbucks to read, I'll be sitting there alone. Don't know who else to call. Don't want to see classmates or co-workers. I've spent the entire day with them.
Maybe I'll spend the night alone reading.
I'm not really tired, like I usually am. A lot was done today; I was productive; things happened, things got done. Well, mostly.
Well, anyway, I am surrounded by boxes and things half packed. Would it be awkward if I stayed in tonight? She's packing. Would she think I'm in the way? Would it heighten the guilt? I dont want her to feel guilty, but at the same time I do. Being ditched, and then having to scurry to find someone else isn't exactly the easiest thing to do. Especially, since I had to alter my entire schedule to deal with it. I was the one impacted negatively. I was the one who had to pay. Never even "Sorry, I know this must be hard for you".
I always wondered. What does it feel like to be the person that leaves?
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Order some takeout and cozy up with a nice read. That's my plan for the evening and completely ignoring that I just moved to a new place and need to unpack ..hehe.
Your last statement has me thinking, really wonder what it does feel like to be the person that leaves.Posted Jun 26th, 2009 at 10:02 PM by belle
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so what did you end up doing last night?Posted Jun 27th, 2009 at 12:24 PM by AnGeL EyEs
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life is always good without plans , lets its be spontaneous
Posted Jun 28th, 2009 at 12:13 PM by desert bird
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