Is so over rated man
still
tx ev 1 4 wishin m birthday

My neice Eeman in my dad's lap, she's in Riyadh

The worst feeling about the death of a loved one is not the disbelief you get when you first hear abt it, it's not the hope of them getting up when you see their dead body, it's not the indifference you feel when you see their janaza taken away, it's not even the heart ache you have, when you have to accept all of it.

It comes way after that may be it even takes years to get to that feeling, but it just happens on a random day when you are like doing some mundane task when the realization...

I miss khi n my family
wanna go back 2 mom
I hate it here

She chose to walk alone,
though others wondered why
Refused to look before her,
kept eyes cast upwards towards the sky
She didn't have companions;
no need for earthly things
Only wanted freedom from what she felt were puppet strings
She longed to be a bird, that she might fly away
She pitied every blade of grass, for planted they would stay
She longed to be a flame that brightly danced alone
Felt jealous of the steam that made the air its...

I m so tired mannnnnnnnnn, every single bone in my skeleton seem to curse me. I had told instructor jessy dat i won't b appearing for the test but he's always like "Come on u can do it Maam" ya rite na!!
I was so irregular with my classes for past three months due to the ramdhaan, exam n then tis stupid sardi , come on I didn't even knew my form clearly. It was difficult having that knife chop n loadz of snap kcks but inst. jessy neva listenz. He always show so...

I hv completely wasted 4 hrs n hvn't wrote a single word for the thesis. Saray rukay huay ultay seedhay kaam aaj hi yaad aa rahay hayn . I hv watched the stupid Z drama "jub luv hua", replied some century old mails, paid bills online, did some research for my next shopping even i m writing this journal entry on GS after agez lekin majal hay jau thesis k baray mayn kuch saucha bhi hau ( khair i hvn't done any thing in the whole month tau wat can i do today na). koi hal nayi...

It never had been easy for me, espacially if it's one of my dear n near one. I just don't know how to react or what to say or what to think even. Just a feeling of numbness surrounds me and then it seems like a part of me has also died. The worst part is that I don't even cry no matter how big is the loss.

I was in office today doing my regular work when I received the call from my brother's number in saudia. He was asking about bhai jaan's where abouts and I said k m not sure may...

inheyn nayi nayi cheezayn soojhti hayn.

I was missin family very much so he took me to rock climbing I mean yeh bhi koi insanoan k karnay ka kaam hay ya tau chipkaliyan aisa karti hayn ya bandar n I doubt k aisi koi characteristic hum mayhn payi jaati hayn. chalau lay gayay i dun mind dat lekin unhoan nay hamayn oopar bhi charha dya I mean bhala koi baat hay
I said m nay oopar nayi jana i gotta fear of heights man lekin wauh bhi mairay hi bhai hayn he said to...

tx alot na
i mean i dunno wat sum 1 will like in tis journal, i hvn't even got 10 entries in there na

her valima took place. waisay in my personal opinion she looked more pretty in valima as compared 2 her shadi day nayi????


I took off her nose ring, it was not suiting her bilkul bhi dat day. Faisal is really a lucky guy na


may they get the very best in life. Yesterday she had sent me her honey moon pix frm malasya n sumwhere else n they really seemed happy
I wish them all the luck in their upcoming lives

Faz's nikah was a day earlier in muhallay ki masjid so it was just the rukhsati dat I have 2 attend. I asked Kims 2 pick me up frm home s dad was not feelin well n kims s usual late uskau hamaysha 2 ghantay pehlay ka time dayna chahiye. btw I luveddddd da dress I was wearing aik tau i neva had worn mayroon color before dusra it had dat copper coloured antique work on it :love:
khair kamal bhai aayay n v sat again for bahadurabad as the wedding was in sum lawn over there. When...

n finally she did got married
I had 2 delay my U.S departure just 2 attend her wedding warna faz n faisal daunaun mayn is baat par fite hauti k who's going kill me
khair they decided 2 hv a single mehndi+mayoon for both bride n groom. The venue 4 dat was faz's unkil's place in bahadurabad n it was decorated by faiz's bhabhi
I reached her place with mum n dad bhagtay daurtay coz had been bz all day shopping. She was lookin so sada si so cute

...

I just returned frm juma` prayerz n had a conv wid faz my friend for past 4 yrz n she had given such a zabardast si newz na. Luckily she's in lhr attendin sum conference owise i cud hv directly went 2 her office n wud hv given her a myself.

In our gp of friends v r like 2 galz; m n faz n 3 guyz; kim, faisal n zee. v were wid each other in BAF 4 around whole 4 yrz, despite being in different departments our cartel was very well bonded. By sum coincidence v resigned @ da same...

i just wanna go home rite now, had been so tired seemz like hvn't slept for ages, on monday night I was awake whole night being shab-e-barat then yesterday had 2 go out wid guppiez in da evening. I bowled mostly wid a 12 number ball despite qamar's advise 2 play frm a lighter ball, so my arm ached whole nite ( mashwaray pay amal na karnay ka anjaam )

From 2day khurram my boss is on leave so had to take care of the stuff in his absence. At 11'o clck i went to ABN AMRO's head office,...